I’m good. I’m in a really, really good place. I am supported and I am loved and I am engaged in a handful of proven programmed solutions. I am parenting and wife-ing and working, all with a new sense of peace and pride. Don’t get me wrong, it’s wretched sometimes, yes, and it’s outlandishly busy almost all the time, and it’s equal parts mind-blowing and brain-numbing and it’s fresh and it’s wicked and it’s glorious and it’s foul and it’s all the time, all the time, all the time, all the time, but that’s okay. I’m okay.

The outpouring of generosity and support you’ve shown me defies description. Believe me, I wish I could describe to you what it means to me. I wish I could find just the right words but they escape me and I have to let them go, for now. Let them run. (I think they’ll come back, over time.) Right now please know that not only have you given me a tremendous gift, you have also loosened some of the fear that grips so many other people out there, people like me, who are afraid to be honest. I know this is true because they are writing to me. My honesty helped them, yes, but so did your support. Maybe even more so.

[And now, a disclaimer.] I spoke out because I want to be honest about who I am. Because every word I ever think or write from here on out will be tinted with shades of this Big Thing, even though I may not write directly about it at all. I feel like I need to say that it was never my intention to become a mouthpiece for any particular program, or a representative for any particular addiction. It was simply an unveiling, a very personal unveiling, so that I could move forward with my life and my work, particularly in this space. Also, for those of you who are new to this blog, I am relatively anonymous here. I only use my first name, do not disclose my city, and use pseudonyms for my children. [End awkward disclaimer.]

I’m closing comments on this post because I don’t want you to feel like you need to offer more support than you already have. I just wanted to update the many, many of you who continue to so sweetly reach out to me. I’m good, I’m hard at work, I’m wholly supported by every single person in my life, I’m lucky beyond measure, and I’m ablaze with hope. Hope, and gratitude.

Thank you. So much.